I have experienced several progressions since my last post. The pain continues to worsen, I began having severe spasms in my thighs and spine, the tremors always worsen, the headaches are daily now but only on the right (lower back) side of my head that have caused previous on-going neck pain to increase w/spasms.
My husband and I had a discussion with the physiatrist to try to see if there were any new treatment options available to me. We discussed syrinx stenting (rather than shunting) and several surgical treatment options for pain.
Two pain treatment options were ruled out immediately due to the potential to cause trauma to other areas of the nervous system. Stenting isn't a preferable, or logical, option for me, as far as I'm concerned, and the doctor wasn't too keen on it either but since it is now an available treatment option he was willing to discuss it with the neurosurgeon. The doctor then suggested we try an intrathecal pain pump. After a thorough explanation (we thought), Mickey and I agreed that this might be the better path to take. It would potentially decrease the amount of oral medications I take. My list has changed a lot due to increasing, on-going debilitating pain and neurological deterioration.
Mickey and I waited patiently to hear from either doctor over the span of a month. However, by the time my June appointment arrived, we hadn't heard from either one. While I understand that these brain and spine surgeons are extremely busy, I thought it was quite rude of the neurosurgeon to not respond at all to the physiatrist. So, the physiatrist will correspond with the neurosurgeon again. If he still doesn't respond, we will need to see another surgeon because this is the next step in my treatment and could provide an opportunity to increase my quality of life.
I'm tired of the continuous oral medication increases. I was one to wait as long as I could before taking pain medication. I would suffer until I just couldn't take the pain any longer. Of course, I hoped the pain would go away and sometimes it did so I didn't need to take anything. Now, I have no choice because the pain is always there, even with the pain medication.
My neurologist ordered new images of my thoracic spine, the imaging center did an MRI of the brain and full spine. They only reported on the thoracic spine though. There were changes with the length of the syrinx and I now have two new hemangiomas/tumors at T9 and T11. The tumors are what cause the spasming pain in my spine, ARGH!!!!!!!
I continue to see the orthosurgeon every 6 months (after the first 1 1/2 years). Basically, these doctors monitor my progress and make any recommendations, or changes, in my treatment plan that would be necessary.
I often awake in the morning with a swollen right eye that drains clear fluid until the swelling goes down. The orthosurgeon suggested I see an ophthalmologist first thing in morning. He told Mickey not to wake me until it is time to go to the appointment so the doc gets a chance to see exactly what's happening. I am within a block or two of all my doctors which makes it very convenient on appointment days. I'm still searching for one that is covered under our insurance plan.
I have never hated anything, or anyone, in my life, until now. I HATE the effects of syringomyelia with a passion. It will be 3 years, on August 28th, since my nervous system went haywire. My body has gone through so much trauma and neurological abuse that it's really unimaginable. By the Grace of GOD, I'm hanging in there and able to force myself to participate in some family activities and functions. I always enjoy myself!!! Then there are times when I feel like I can do something, probably because it seems so natural. However, it often turns out to be a desire but not a reality. The chronic high-level pain, with a number of neurological symptoms, prevents me from doing a lot (just about everything) and more often than not, the bed is a constant companion.
It is extremely difficult to live this way and I often find myself thinking of what I can do to end the constant agony. Most people with SM are told they look normal. Once you realize there's no choice but to carry on, you do what it takes. You're not dying but you often wish you were because of overwhelming pain and neurological deficits. There's nothing broken, however, your nervous system wreaks the worst internal havoc on your body. It's hard to explain all the strange/bizarre/most times painful, sensations that the body experiences throughout each day. It's pure emotional and physical torture, knowing that you have no choice but to deal with the pain and other symptoms. By the Grace of GOD, I awake each morning (smiling through teary eyes, despite the highest level pain), deal with whatever symptoms arise all day long, enjoy time with my family when I can, then go to sleep knowing I have to do it all again the next day. There's no way out of this heart/gut wrenching nightmare.
Until next time, everyone struggling or suffering in anyway, I wish you the best in your life. I pray we are all able to manage each and every day.
I hope everyone has had an enjoyable day!! Summertime/Funtime!!!!!